By: Denise N. Fyffe
Copyright © 2013, Denise N. Fyffe
We have all suffered on the job in one way or another. Whether it is coworkers, bosses or simply from unfair workplace practices and discriminations; we have suffered. I have been no different and have had more than my share of these miserable and trying circumstances.
At my most recent place of employ, my coworker decided to be disrespectful to me and call me out in front of the office, because she didn’t agree with a decision I had made on the software system I managed. People who know me can tell you, I do not stand for disrespect and bullying. I have been like this since I was a child and had suffered racism at the hands of twin sister peers in basic school. I made the decision then never to stand for this type of treatment and I was standing up for myself now.
I had enough of how she spoke to people, including my boss, and even reported this to my manager once before. It seemed this was a frequent occurrence and she always got away with it. That morning I had enough and let her know that I did not appreciate how she was speaking to me. Let’s just say it didn’t go well, but I was not going to allow another person to subject me to work place bullying.
Two days later when I reported to work, after a scheduled day off it seemed the devil had been busy. It is my opinion that that same coworker had plotted a scheme for me to lose my job. She did not convey the information required for me to schedule an exam for students who already had bad experience in one of the online courses. My manager had called me the morning, literally interrogating me, asking me the same questions five, six times as if to catch me in a lie.
What was also clear was that my boss believed that I was to blame. She didn’t have to say it; but the questions that she asked and the perspective that she took made her stance very clear. I was more than disappointed; I was livid. I went to my car to seek solace because I was just short of walking off the job and I prayed. That is the only thing I could do that would not leave me in dire consequences.
Being a Christian since I was in primary school, I have faced more trials and tribulations than I would like. I have suffered betrayals and thievery by so-called friends. I have had spiritual attacks on my life. I have suffered poverty, loss of job and income. I have had depression and even contemplated suicide. The one thing that has kept me grounded is simply the love and protection of Christ. If I didn’t have a solid relationship and experience with God the Father, I would have been lost many times. Psalm 23 sums up how I have lived my life;
“The LORD is my shepherd; I shall not want.
He maketh me to lie down in green pastures:
He leadeth me beside the still waters.
He restoreth my soul:
He leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name’s sake.
Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil: For thou art with me;
Thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.
Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies:
Thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over.
Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life:
And I will dwell in the house of the LORD forever.”- Psalm 23
My relationship with God transcends just attending church. If it was solely based on attendance, I would be nowhere today because there were more than five years when I did not attend church at all. However, I consistently practiced turning to God for all things, thanking Him for all things and believing in Him for all things. Therefore, no matter what everyone else did around me, my faith in God was not shaken, even if my faith in Christians was ripped to shreds.
In the years when I did not attend church, God continued to bless and protect me. My gifts were intact and God still communicated with me. He took me from dungeons and precipice. During this time, I had even managed to read off the New Testament and prayed or testified more than before. All the experiences I have had before, prepared me for the situations I face at work. It does not make them any more easier but it ensures that I run under the shadow of the Almighty when I am in trouble.
Psalm 91 – My Refuge and My Fortress
- He that dwelleth in the secret place of the most High shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty.
- I will say of the LORD, He is my refuge and my fortress: my God; in him will I trust.
- Surely he shall deliver thee from the snare of the fowler, and from the noisome pestilence.
- He shall cover thee with his feathers, and under his wings shalt thou trust: his truth shall be thy shield and buckler.
- Thou shalt not be afraid for the terror by night; nor for the arrow that flieth by day;
- Nor for the pestilence that walketh in darkness; nor for the destruction that wasteth at noonday.
- A thousand shall fall at thy side, and ten thousand at thy right hand; but it shall not come nigh thee.
- Only with thine eyes shalt thou behold and see the reward of the wicked.
- Because thou hast made the LORD, which is my refuge, even the most High, thy habitation;
- There shall no evil befall thee, neither shall any plague come nigh thy dwelling.
- For he shall give his angels charge over thee, to keep thee in all thy ways.
- They shall bear thee up in their hands, lest thou dash thy foot against a stone.
- Thou shalt tread upon the lion and adder: the young lion and the dragon shalt thou trample under feet.
- Because he hath set his love upon me, therefore will I deliver him: I will set him on high, because he hath known my name.
- He shall call upon me, and I will answer him: I will be with him in trouble; I will deliver him, and honour him.
- With long life will I satisfy him, and shew him my salvation.