“Fearing people is a dangerous trap, but trusting the lord means safety.” Prov. 29:25
I have been saved for nearly 25 years and for at least 20 of those years, I knew my life was aligned to the prophetic. Mind you the devil was successful in trying me so hard that I forsake that belief, for a while. Nonetheless, my schooling under God’s tutelage was hard, was brutal, was soul crushing.
As a teenager, I often wondered why my friends were scattered across the globe; no one was allowed to stay long enough to be my lifelong friend. This engendered more issues and questions in my mind than I would like to admit to.
As an adult, in my twenties, I stopped wondering. I was sure it was God; obviously they don’t say He is a jealous God for nothing.
- God wanted my undivided attention.
- He would have no other human influence me for a sustained amount of time.
I would watch as besties, good friends, people who I found favor in briefly all disappear. Boyfriends, were torn away like dying leaves in a tornado. No one could survive the threshing process when God gets to sifting through a person in my life.
As a prophet, it was mandated that I stand alone; regardless of whether I was in training yes or no. This, I would later come to understand was so that I would not fear human rejection.
I had to totally depend on God.
When the time comes for me to say something which many would find unfavorable, I would have to do so regardless of what others may think.
Being a prophet, I could not look to win popularity contests.
Other prophets have been through it:
- For three years, Isaiah had to go naked.
- Hosea had to stay married to a wife who was a harlot.
- Jeremiah, when he went to the King, wore an ox yoke.
- Jeremiah knowing the King would imprison him, delivered the word anyway.
- Samuel, even though he liked King Saul had to rebuke him.
Living through the last 20 years has not been easy. Going to the school of loneliness and rejection has been harsh. There have been many to reject me and many more to be torn from my life, so that I am left alone. Solely dependent on God.
“Whom have I in heaven but you? I desire you more than anything on earth.” Psalm 73:25
It is not an easy thing, but sometimes not sooner, but later, we realize we have to fall in step with God and stand alone.
It takes courage we never knew we had and using God’s strength to endure.
I am not sure my season of going through is finished, but I am constantly reassured that God is constantly with me, if no one else.
Fortifying a prophet is seriously hard work.
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