Think on these things: Fiery Trials, have a purpose

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Everybody is either in a trial now or between trials. You have either just had one, you are going to have one, or you are having one. But why call it a “fiery” trial as Peter does? This is because by its light the fire reveals precisely what we are spiritually.

It is apparent, of course, that this only appeals to those who have a desire to be godly.

These have come so that your faith—of greater worth than gold, which perishes even though refined by fire—may be proved genuine and may result in praise, glory and honor when Jesus Christ is revealed. —1 Peter 1:7

Excerpted from When God Says “Well Done!” (Christian Focus Publications Ltd., 1993).

2015 Testimony #6 – American Sniper, The story of my life for 2014 (Part 2)

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But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you.-Matthew 6:33

This was my main spiritual focus for 2014. My guiding principle.

Seeking the kingdom first, got me a royal experience of warfare for 2014.

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From December 2013, I was actively being affected by the symptoms of my fibroids. Pain, discomfort, circulation issues, etc. By August 2014, it was decided I needed immediate surgery. I was broke so I had to postpone it until December 2014.

I started school in September 2014 and that caused me to take on further debt. We had assignments every week and they were mostly group assignments. Di stress did tun up!! Here enters the unwanted stress of group dynamics and sour personalities. Sigh. For three months, I tried to maintain a level head and pushed aside the urge to cast some of my group mates to the pit of hell.

At work, my boss upped her antics and this volcano erupted. I could not take anymore. By the time I was done, she had malice me, we were in it with HR and my psychotic tendencies were simmering. Stress was my constant companion for two months and I got no work assignments in that time. It ended, by November 2014, with me being transferred to a new department, a new boss and new coworkers.

Hallelujah!!!

During this time into December 2014, someone again damaged my car mirror and it was five levels of hell to get it fixed. It almost put me in jeopardy with my insurance and I was two shades close to hiring assassins to take out everyone who had a part in driving me to the twelfth dimension of hell in 2014.

I outlived, outprayed and survived all these ‘Hunger Games‘ trials in 2014.

Next was the surgery for which I needed half a million dollars. Some friends and some family members donated. I ended up with half the funds. By December 18, 2014 I was on an operation table, praying for death and just wanting to be hastened to heaven rather than surviving to fight the never ending battles which was my life’s duty it seemed.

My dual surgery had complications and only one procedure could be done. The doctors found surprises and I lost half my blood because they had to do the procedure inside vs. taking the organ outside. When, I woke I knew something was up. I was filled with more holes than a sponge, which means they went treasure hunting for veins. An almost impossible task in a cold operating room.

Later the updates came in, the anesthesiologist chastised me for my last words before going under. That’s the ‘power of words’; specifically my words. Remember, I didn’t necessarily want to survive the surgery. I made sure my meager estate was in order and my wishes were known, just in case. Nonetheless, I was being monitored around the clock by nurses every few minutes. After the first day where I slept and built back my blood supplies, I grew stronger and bounced back quickly. A marvel for the poor nurses who didn’t know that this surgery was a walk in the park for me.

By day three, I was ready to go home and refusing to stay one more miserable, restless, sleep deprived night. The administration had more surprises for me. Because of the complications, my hospital bill more than doubled. My heart fell, my mind sunk and I was tempted to tell God that I was over being a King’s Kid, without a King’s bank account. I wanted to throw a tantrum but I was so shell shocked, if you cut me, you wouldn’t draw blood. I decided to give him the debt and focus on recovery.

I had fought the battles. I had swum the seas. I had run the race and I was dead tired. I decided to chuck everything over to the master and seek Him first. I am sure he heard all the complaints and cursings that I had for Him, but it doesn’t seem like He disowned me because of them. If anything, he gave me peace in the midst of the sand storm.

The year 2014 ended with me in bed recovering and ignoring the fact that I was $500,000 in debt. The year 2015 started with me still in debt and my wound causing me more worries.

But here I stand.

I can do nothing else but stand, because it is all beyond my capabilities. What seems like an impossible situation has forced me to rely totally on God’s help. The rescue is all him.

Copyright © 2015 · All Rights Reserved · Denise N. Fyffe

2015 Testimony #5 – American Sniper, The story of my life for 2014 (Part 1)

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But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you.-Matthew 6:33

This was my main spiritual focus for 2014. My guiding principle.

Seeking the kingdom first, got me a royal experience of warfare for 2014.

2014 was a rough year. It was brutal. As it relates to trials, I would say it was epic. Imagine you are fighting in a war, just like that scene in American Sniper, where about six soldiers were stashed in a building. They were in deep enemy territory, but they needed to take out the best sniper on the enemies’ side. It was sniper against sniper. It was American Sniper Chris Kyle, The Legend, against an Olympic sniper, The Butcher. After taking out The Butcher, they compromised their position and enemy combatants surrounded them on all sides and on every level.

What seemed like a hopeless situation turned into a demonstration of how God can turn a really bad situation for our good. Classical symbolism.

These soldiers called for help. There was a sand storm moving in. The rescue troops were twenty minutes out. The air support was one minute out but missed the target because of the sandstorm made it impossible to get in range and it was biblically intimidating. The firefight got intense but the storm made it impossible for either side to see each other at all, so they were shooting blindly. The rescue team got there just in the nick of time, for the soldiers to run out of the building and into the back of the truck.

As if he wasn’t fighting for his life, the American sniper had to fight for survival too. He was the last to get out and the truck was leaving him. He seemed to get shot, but his weapon took the hit and he chased that truck for dear life, when they pulled him in by his fingertips.

This sums up my life in 2014.

In reality, someone was purposely scratching my new 2009 Mazda car and using it as a chalkboard when it was parked at night. It was impossible to find out who. For several days, I would come out in the morning and my car would be scratched or windshield covered in gum. I was a slow building volcano, utterly frustrated.

damages to my car Also I had a minor car accident, the person who hit me did not take responsibility and my insurance company didn’t want to go to court so they said I was at fault. The guys I hired did shoddy work and messed up the paintwork and rendering of the bummer. They stole about $25,000, in material for the job and my 2009 Mazda, looked a mess. The spray man decided he would sport with my car and be spotted at the bars with my car at night. My car also became a whorehouse, where sexual acts took place. Mind you this was all by April 2014.

I decided to turn to family. Lord give me strength, yet another example to me of why family members were just like everybody else. My cousin fixed only half the car and the side which was done, leaked the colour. So at the end of the day, my own family robbed me of $15000. I was left with 3 different shades of blue on the car and really poor paint job. This sowed and sprouted an oak tree of unforgiveness which I had to deal with in 2015.

Sigh.

Anyway, I was praying to God, still, for help and that I wouldn’t commit murder. Few months after this my cousin bought equipment for over $100,000 and it was destroyed in an act of arson. I honestly took pleasure in the fact that God had my back and those who deceived me would reap His vengeance and not mine.

Within this same time, I decided to tear down walls and widen my gate for my car to manoeuvre inside the yard. The workmen were lazy, smoked ganja, always needed more material, lied and wanted more money than quoted. By summer, I was again, disenchanted with mankind.

I wanted to break faces. I wanted to seek, destroy, decimate and rid the earth of such scum. I wanted to take names and reek plagues. I wanted vengeance; but, I chained the beast and appealed to God.

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This was a year, when I felt constantly surrounded. I felt like I had no hope. I felt like I had no saviour. I felt like after going out on one tour of duty, I was immediately sent out again to fight with the enemy. It felt like too much. I was being pushed well past my limits and I truly feared for my immortal soul. I wondered why the severity of the trials and I was concerned about my own psychological welfare.

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The Prophet’s School of Obedience: Do No Harm by Denise N. Fyffe

The Life of a 21st Century Prophet
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Since last week, I have tuned into YouTube sermon’s of Prophetess Juanita Bynum, again. Last year I did this while going through some fiery trials, I would be crying like a baby at my desk. Tears running like the river Jordan. The woman is blessed, powerful and a true servant of God, no doubt. I am listening to these sermons at my desk and I can barely control my spirit and body. I keep clenching my fist and speaking in tongues under my breath. If given the opportunity, when listening to her sermons, I would run up and down that office like it was altar call on a Sunday morning.

Let me share with you a moment.

In one of her sermons ‘Submit and Repent‘, she speaks to the congregation and tells us to fast tomorrow until 5:00 p.m. I took it upon myself to do so and I did the next day. Mind you I am diabetic and have not done a food fast in a great many years. But that night and morning, my spirit was focused on the fact that I would be doing a fast.

The broken prophet courtesy of graceofourlord-com

The broken prophet courtesy of graceofourlord-com

I woke up the next day, the day proceeded and by 5:00 p.m. I broke my fast. I had no headaches, hunger pangs or moments of weakness from not eating. Thanks be to God. That day I wasn’t feeling 100% though, I had pains from a persistent health condition and I had stayed home, but I communed with God and prayed, and spoke in tongues and I could feel him telling me I needed to go to bible study that night.

Let me tell you, a situation happened in bible study that night and the exact thing which the Prophet preached about, I had to speak to. I had to step into the Office of the Prophet, deal with the matter and serve the purpose of why I was there that night.

I must add though that I have grown and matured or rather been tempered by God. If this occurred when I was a younger prophet, I would have cut into the offender and probably damn his soul to hell. But, I have spent so many years being refined in the fire by God, to know when he needs me to show His compassion and not His wrath.

I am still in training, but I take some comfort from the fact that I learned something in the prophet’s school of obedience that I could correctly execute when He required it.

 

Copyright © 2016 · All Rights Reserved · Denise N. Fyffe

 

Why do I face so many trials and tribulations?

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Reblogged

Ever wonder why you face so many #trials and #tribulations? I do. Here was #God‘s answer, why.

Seeing Backward

“O LORD, when you favored me, you made my mountain stand firm; but when you hid your face, I was dismayed” (Ps 30:7).

It is often difficult to recognize the hand of God when we are in the midst of adversity. We often feel God has hidden His face from us. When the Lord takes us through deep valleys, there will be fruit from the deep valley that we cannot see. You must press into Him with all you have during this time.

God uses the deep valley to frame our lives to create a change in our nature, not just a change in habits. The depth and width of our valley is often an indicator of the level of calling and influence we will have on others in the future. Our adversity is not just for us, but others who will be in our future path of influence. This is not very comforting when you are in the middle of the valley, but know this is a truth in the Kingdom.

It is often years later when we discover the wisdom of God and why He intentionally led us through the dark valley. Life is often lived forward, but understood backward. It is not until we are down the road and we stand on the mountain looking back at through valley that we can appreciate the terrain God has allowed us to scale and the spiritual deposits He has made in our life while we were there. “He reveals the deep things of darkness and brings deep shadows into the light” (Job 12:22). When you begin to realize this, you sit back and breathe a sigh of relief because you know that God was in control all along. It didn’t seem like it at the time, but He was.
Do you find yourself in the valley? Now is the time to fully trust Him to guide you to higher ground.

Today God Is First (TGIF) devotional message, Copyright by Os Hillman, Marketplace Leaders.

Revealing the Christian Life

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By: Denise N. Fyffe
Copyright © 2012, Poetess Defy, Denise N. Fyffe

Being a Christian is not easy and in an ever changing world where all the fundamental beliefs which you base your faith on being disregarded; lets just say, if you aren’t firm you can throw the whole lot out the door. Not to mention the daily battle you have to fight which the devil unleashes in your life.

It is often said that if you are having an easy life as a Christian and not facing your shares of the spiritual warfare, then you aren’t doing it right. So, can someone explain to me, why has the devil picked me out for special attention and perpetual torment. I am really tapped at this point. Someone else reminded me that Job went through a lot because God had faith in him and he was highly favoured by God; for a second there I was pleased to be reminded that I am highly favoured of God. However, being human, my spirit is more than a little tapped from the almost 20 years of trials I have been through; no to mention this season of five years and two years.

I must be fair and give the other side of the story, I have a particular rebellious nature. Yes, yes, the first step to getting help is admitting you have a problem and knowing what that problem is. So, I do know He is putting in the work to break away that part of me, so that I can be used as he wants, and I don’t have a lot of time to goof either. In this, I am not deceived about what my weaknesses are. In my Christian walk, you can compare me to a young adult; still experiencing the rebellious urges but gaining the wisdom to know I need to conform to what God wants me to do and when to do it. Lord knows my will is broken and his is slowly taking its place.

Let me open your eyes, I would not change being a Christian  and from as early an age as I became one. As a child it was easier for me to accept all the experiences and belief that I learned and experienced. I put emphasis on experience, because I am quite intelligent and could explain away some of these things and be deceived like those who support the evolution theory; apes, monkeys and what not. So, thank God, I have been a christian this long and yes I have some pretty skin crawling, knee shaking, soul healing experiences; both good and bad.

There is also another aspect to the Christian life that not many discuss fairly, thoroughly and to those who are becoming a Christian. This never happened for me and quite honestly, in my particular case, no one was and is there to give me the guidance I need for my particular experience. For this particular dilemma, God has had some people communicate to me that my guide will be God and him directly. Now imagine, on your first day of work, hearing that you will be working side by side with your boss. It has its good and it has its bad. You can’t get away with anything and you get your comeuppance quite quickly. But, as I said before, I am also highly favoured and blessed. Not lotto blessed, but in only the way God can bless you.

This leads me back to where I started, my tribulations and their tenure. Over the last few years they have taken a toll on me and I must admit for a period there, I was quite deceived. With my eyes finally open to the truth, I can see better to assess my enemy and adjust my counter tactics to his latest trickery and torment.

Tomorrow is a new and different day, I will have new feelings and more experiences. One thing I will hold on to is, God never gives us more than we can bear and he does not take you through where he cannot protect you.

Note from Denise: Please share and tell me your opinions as well; because I will certainly be sharing mine.

Revealing the truth about 1 Peter 1:6-7 by Denise N. Fyffe

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Why you must endure many Trials

1 Peter 1:6-7 NLT

So be truly glad. There is wonderful joy ahead, even though you must endure many trials for a little while. These trials will show that your faith is genuine. It is being tested as fire tests and purifies gold—though your faith is far more precious than mere gold. So when your faith remains strong through many trials, it will bring you much praise and glory and honor on the day when Jesus Christ is revealed to the whole world.

The Answer to Why

why we go through trials image courtesy of calledforsuchatime-comThis bible verse from the Book of Peter, answers a heartrending question, why. Trials are common to Christians and many through this suffering ask this simple but complex question. It is as if the answer would help us to make sense of our experience or help us to bear.

…and It does.

It will also prove who you are and prove whether you are faithful to God. How? If you are being tested to prove yourself to God, then if that matters to you, you will endure the testing. However, if you don’t care, you will forsake him.

God says that we are refined as gold in this process. We are made strong and can therefore represent Him and endure whatever persecution that comes against us.

So that the proof of your faith, being more precious than gold which is perishable, even though tested by fire, may be found to result in praise and glory and honor at the revelation of Jesus Christ;-1 Peter 1:7

For You have tried us, O God; You have refined us as silver is refined. You brought us into the net; You laid an oppressive burden upon our loins. You made men ride over our heads; We went through fire and through water, Yet You brought us out into a place of abundance.-Psalm 66:10-12

For the sake of My name I delay My wrath, And for My praise I restrain it for you, In order not to cut you off. Behold, I have refined you, but not as silver; I have tested you in the furnace of affliction. “For My own sake, for My own sake, I will act; For how can My name be profaned? And My glory I will not give to another.-Isaiah 48:9-11

Jesus endured persecution. He was crucified for our sake and He made it through. He did say that greater things we will do than He on earth because of the infilling of the Holy Spirit. As such, we will endure more, but we will do greater things because of it.

I tell you the truth, anyone who believes in me will do the same works I have done, and even greater works, because I am going to be with the Father.-John 14:12

Finding this verse gives me comfort and surity, being someone who has endured a great many trials, the answer to my whys, is a balm to my soul.

Copyright © 2015 · All Rights Reserved · Denise N. Fyffe

Day 101 – 2015 Trials and Tribulations of the Finances

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poverty courtesy of urbanchildinstitute-org

poverty courtesy of urbanchildinstitute-org

2015 has so far been a year of trial by poverty. Since the recession hit Jamaica hard in 2009, I have been challenged in the area of my finances. Stretching a dollar is no longer possible for day to day needs, now it pap weh it bruk. Having not worked for two of those years made things even more difficult. I lost freedom of movement, my job and my own place to live. Nonetheless, I bunkered down and braced for the challenges which faced me for the next five years.

But 2015, has been the year to put all others to shame. I did a surgery at the end of 2014 which left me half a million dollars in debt and I have yet to recover. Having not worked for nearly two months put me in the red with every bill collector that I am obligated to and they all have my address. The calls come every month, but no sympathy.

Spiritually, I have never been better and I garner that I will simply have to leave it all in the hands of the Almighty; after all, I always say He doesn’t only test us to see whether we can bear, but how we bear it. My spirit is still uplifted, but the battle is in my mind. When the bill collectors call, I own a little frustration and stress. My worry is that I won’t be able to exhale or enjoy a proper meal for the next year at least. God forbid.

Its hard.

Psalm 37:25 (NLT)

Once I was young, and now I am old. Yet I have never seen the godly abandoned or their children begging for bread.

So, why do we experience trials and tribulations?

As christians, we go through trials to grow our faith. If we never go through them then how do we learn to endure?

How else do we qualify to serve with Christ?

How else do we prove that we are capable of managing His affairs here, on earth?

How else do we grow in strength and conviction?

How else do we overcome temptation at the most extreme?

Trials come to prove you.
Trials come to strengthen you.
Trials come to break you.
Trials come to change you into the best version of yourself.
Trials come to prove you to you.
Trials come to provide spiritual warfare training.
Trials come to develop godly character.
Trials come to grow your patience.

Be encouraged

1 Peter 5:10 ESV – And after you have suffered a little while, the God of all grace, who has called you to his eternal glory in Christ, will himself restore, confirm, strengthen, and establish you.

James 1:12 ESV – Blessed is the man who remains steadfast under trial, for when he has stood the test he will receive the crown of life, which God has promised to those who love him.

Romans 12:12 ESV – Rejoice in hope, be patient in tribulation, be constant in prayer.

1 Corinthians 10:13 ESV – No temptation has overtaken you that is not common to man. God is faithful, and he will not let you be tempted beyond your ability, but with the temptation he will also provide the way of escape, that you may be able to endure it.

John 16:33 ESV – I have said these things to you, that in me you may have peace. In the world you will have tribulation. But take heart; I have overcome the world.”

Philippians 4:6-7 ESV – Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

Exodus 14:14 ESV – The Lord will fight for you, and you have only to be silent.”

Proverbs 3:5-6 ESV – Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths.

I know God will release me from this burden in time.

As I am encouraging myself, be encouraged also.

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