Dealing with Spiritual Exhaustion in the Christian Life

The Life of a 21st Century Prophet

It’s been several weeks of Sunday’s, and I am exhausted.

Sunday Night Services

The Holy Spirit had instructed us, at Seaview Garden’s New Testament Church of God, to keep tarrying service, on Sunday nights, for five weeks until mid December. The first night was power packed, souls laid prostrate at the altar, others seeking Jesus with fervor and even when we were in the car park, the presence of God was upon us. We were hollering praises to stars, if they could hear us.

God had put a word in my spirit, while in the service, and I didn’t release it. But when I got the car park, I attempted to get in my car and the Spirit gripped my innards, I could hardly breathe. With intercession, I was able to give the word in the car park, where saints were full speed into praising God.

He gave me a word of prophecy for several people and the more we tried to quell the Holy Spirit, the more people rejoiced. There were saints walking down lanes and avenues speaking in tongues and rejoicing.

Good be praised.

The following week, the Holy Spirit kept His appointment. During the week, God was communing with me and the Holy Spirit was talking to me about deliverance. That Sunday night more people were rocked by the power of God and found hope for another day. Again the Spirit was waiting to seize us in the car park and we left rejoicing.

The third Sunday night was one of intense rejoicing. I found myself dancing and praising God, it was sweet. The presence of God was so heavy. I couldn’t stand and found myself on the floor, bowed low before my Savior’s feet. Tears ran down my face like school children on Friday evening, when the bell rings. That night, again the Word went forth and God was faithful.

Sometimes things come up and you get into a frenzy about how to juggle the balls you already have in your hand. That was week four. I had an invite to an event, which promised to be a date with destiny. But I was mindful of my obligations to my church and Bishop. The Holy Spirit provided guidance, so I sought permission from my Pastor with the promise to be back as soon as I could.

The ‘Heal the Land’ single release or launch was a blessing. Jermaine Gordon’s song had the right ingredients to bring renewal to Jamaica. His team and he, emphasized worship and God was exalted. I am happy to say that God will work through him, as long as he humbles himself, to the will of Jehovah, to spread a fresh sound out of Jamaica.

At church that night, I could hardly but keep quiet in the house of God. His presence was tangible and I found myself running – or speed walking 😉 – around the sanctuary. I couldn’t sit until I made 7 laps, and the Holy Spirit had me release a word. I am truly thankful for the spiritual maturity of my Bishop who knew and allowed the Holy Spirit to have his way, even if he was about to start his sermon. Such wisdom and obedience is lacking in many churches. But, I thank God when he shifted me, and gave me my present assignment under the headship of Bishop Ryan Reddie.

The Physical Rigors

The Lord has been showing me how tired my Pastor was for many weeks now and I interceded on his behalf as the Holy Spirit directed. But I think, he is giving me more than just a peripheral understanding of what he goes through.

Last week Monday, I was drained. I felt like my energy was leeched. My eyes felt like someone dumped a pan of sand in it and I couldn’t function to work until 7 p.m., thank God for a stay at home job with flexible hours.

At home, after the first Sunday tarrying service, I had sprained my finger and my feet hurt. When I hit my bed that night I asked Abba to heal my body. I shut out the pain in my pinkie and foot bottom and surrendered to the sweet tides of nocturnal rest. Needless to say, I woke the next day with no pain in my feet and minimal aches in my finger.

The following Sunday night when I got home, my feet hurt less than before. I was resolved to buy a flat comfortable shoes, which allowed me to move freely without pains after ministering at the altar. I got the shoes on sale at Payless for 60% off, so I knew God was looking out for even my wardrobe and achy feet.

Now, I lie here – sharing my story with you – with only an achy big toe and tiredness lurking in the shadows. I dread how I will feel tomorrow because, today I felt the exhaustion before I even woke this morning after just 5 hours of sleep.

I have come to – again – experience the different level of tiredness one experiences after doing spiritual intercession, prayer, ministry or warfare. A few years ago, I learnt that the best way to deal with this is by fasting and praying as much as you can, so that your spirit man is stronger as you die to the flesh.

For most part of a Sunday, I am fasting or eating very little. This is more so with help from Almighty God, as I don’t crave food then and there is a focus and communing that happens. I try not to have any distractions – my work, my shows, social media – on Sunday so that I can be willing, available and in tune with the Holy Spirit.

I have also again seen whereby God shows up and keeps his appointment with His people, so long as you are faithful and obedient; that you keep your appointment with Him. Each and every night of the services, the Holy Spirit was tangibly present. He manifested through his people and delivered those who yielded to Him.

I share my story with you, to encourage you and to invite you to share your story, encouragement or spiritual advice as well.

And yes, I invite you to come and worship with us at Seaview Garden’s New Testament Church of God. We would be happy to have you for 10:00 a.m. and 6:30 p.m. service on a Sunday.

May Jehovah bless you, greatly.


By: Denise N. Fyffe

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Think on these Things : The Door of Full Surrender


“But He knows the way that I take; when He has tested me, I will come forth as gold.” Job 23:10

I was recently sitting with the leader of a workplace organization as he described a question he poses to workplace believers. “What if there were two doors to choose from; behind one door was the complete will of God for your life and behind the other door was how life could be according to your own preference. Which door would you choose?” The struggle for most lies in the desire to follow God completely and the fear of what might be behind the door of full surrender. Most of us desire to follow God, but few of us will do it at any cost. We do not really believe that God loves us to the degree that we are willing to give Him complete permission to do as He wills in us.

If we desire to fully walk with Christ, there is a cost. We may give intellectual assent and go along with His principles and do fine; however, if we are fully given over to Him and His will for our life, it will be a life that will have adversity.

The Bible is clear that humans do not achieve greatness without having their sinful will broken. This process is designed to create a nature change in each of us, not just a habit change. The Bible calls it circumcision. Circumcision is painful, bloody, and personal.

If God has plans to greatly use you in the lives of others, you can expect your trials to be even greater than those of others. Why? Because, like Joseph who went through greater trials than most patriarchs, your calling may have such responsibility that God cannot afford to entrust it to you without ensuring your complete faithfulness to the call. He has much invested in you on behalf of others. He may want to speak through your life to a greater degree than through another. The events of your life would become the frame for the message He wants to speak through you.

Do not fear the path that God may lead you on. Embrace it. For God may bring you down a path in your life to ensure the reward of your inheritance. “For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all” (2 Cor. 4:17)

Today God Is First (TGIF) devotional message, Copyright by Os Hillman, Marketplace Leaders.

Prayer of the overwhelmed


Dear Lord,
Everything today feels so overwhelming. All my problems seem insurmountable and I cannot see over this hill.

Lord I pray that you will be the sunshine at the end of this dark night in my life and deliver me from oppression, depression and doubt. Lord, let my mind and my eyes be open to your signs and messages, in Jesus’s name amen.


By: Denise N. Fyffe.
Copyright © 2011, defy, Denise N. Fyffe

Prayer to Maintain Thankfulness


Dear Lord,
Help me to always be thankful, and see your blessings. Help me be conscious of the fact that there are others worse off than I.

There are those with no food, no shelter, no clothing, no food, no heat. There are those who are persecuted and cannot praise You as God openly. Lord, I pray for each of these individuals and myself. Help me not to be ungrateful, but realize, where there is life, there is hope. In my down moods oh Lord, life me up.

Jesus, I thank you for the opportunity to praise You, whenever and wherever I am. All this I ask in Jesus name, Amen.

By: Denise N. Fyffe
Copyright © 2016, Denise N. Fyffe

Prayer of Perpetual Praise


To you oh Lord
I give perpetual praise still.

To you I owe as you paid my debts and cleared the bill
My life, I commit as it is yours
You catch my tears, heal my scars
Accept me and most of all
You help me to be a better person
To you oh Lord
I give perpetual praise, still.

By: Denise N. Fyffe
Copyright © 2016, Denise N. Fyffe

Prayer: Hinder my thoughts


Lord, hinder my thoughts
These retched
Who bear no respite for
My weary head.
Hinder their legs,
Though seemingly
Do trek and traverse
My mind;

Lord, hinder my thoughts
Give me peace
Of mind;
All my hopes,
I cash in
For this singular
Lord I pray

Hinder my thoughts.

Copyright © 2016, Denise N. Fyffe

The Faith Chronicles Part 1 – Is the Spiritual sabbatical over?


Spiritual Sabbatical

Faith fears that her playtime is over and God is demanding his due and his time.

Of course, she is his child, but a rebel. He has allowed her to learn things her way and abate her curiosity of things. And like any other child, come back broken and bored and thinking there is nothing better.

Her life is indelibly his life and she has only borrowed it for a time. She must, like any person who has been given much, has to at some point accept the responsibilities as well.

One of her most favourite person called today, and the sound of her voice brought to her, utter joy. If she needed another sign, then surely that must be it. But in a time of so many transitions, how does she make this one.

Faith has always sensed the shift in times, been able to recognize things or more sense of things. She has moved from an immature little girl, to an uncertain teenager and adolescent is the next stage isn’t it?

Here one has to learn how to take responsibility. But was she ready for it?




She has published several books of poetry including:

  1. Jamaican Honey and Sauce
  2. Jamaican Pebbles
  3. Jamaican Pebbles: Poetry Pocketbook
  4. Love Under The Caribbean Stars
  5. Sensuous One
  6. The Island Journal: Jamaica’s Golden Year
  7. Honey to my Sauce
  8. The Expert Teacher’s Guide on How to Motivate Students
  9. Messages to the Deaf
  10. Be Lifted Up

Copyright © 2016 · All Rights Reserved · Denise N. Fyffe

Spiritual Awareness and the Christian Life


By: Denise N. Fyffe.
Copyright © 2012, defy, Denise N. Fyffe

From the moment I got saved 19 years ago, my life, my experiences, everything changed and was different.

The night when I decided to give my life to God, the battle started for me. I felt different and I became aware. I was aware of a tug and war. I was aware of being swayed in two different directions. I became aware that many of the decisions I made was wrong and sinful. I also became aware that I had a temper and after getting baptized, it was ‘trigger happy’. That means, I lost my temper a lot and even more people couldn’t play with me. God also heightened within me the fact that it was wrong and he helped me to break how I reacted; well I did move from full out aggression to passive aggressive. I do internally combust at times, and even with 19 years I am still learning how to balance my reaction.

Since I have given my life to Jesus Christ and living a Christian Life, I have had varied experiences from hell and been the best and worst person you could know. I have been tempted of almost everything under the sun and then some. I have been persecuted, hurt, stolen from, lied to, hated, disrespected, and even backslidden. But, I am still standing and I am reconnected with God.

When you become spiritually aware in Christ, you are a different creature. You are both a servant of God and a soldier in battle. Whether you want to or not, those are your roles. To ignore any, is to almost seal your fate, in ignorance with the devil.

The devil doesn’t fight fair, and he will try to wound you and take you out even before you are suited in God’s armour. You are also mandated to serve in God’s kingdom, in various ways; big or small. So if you disobey that requirement, you will set yourself up for a fall.

Becoming a Christian. One of the best decisions you can make, but you must be wise and act responsibly when you become spiritually aware.